Social Media Detox-Day 2: keeping those observations in my pocket

So it is day two. The first full day technically of no social media and I feel pretty great. I had an interview for a summer camp job this morning that went well. There was an initial moment of thinking "oh man I would totally have posted about this on facebook" but instead I went home and told my husband about it and then texted my best friend and that was the same effect.

In general I seem to have a lot of moments of "oh I want to share this with someone" whether it is a cool sidewalk mural or a funny thought I have and then I have that realization and then think. That is something to put in my back pocket for later and move on.

I have also had a few times where I have found myself staring at the login page with the little "you have x notifcations" thing and I'm not entirely sure how I got there. I am catching myself trying to check facebook mostly in moments of social awkwardness in public or when I get anxious about something. I already knew this about myself but in blocking the follow thru of the habit I can see where it comes from.

I went out tonight and saw a really fabulous improv show and caught up with some friends. I feel really great.
In general there is a certain focus to the world around me that I am noticing. I've been noticing this more the past few weeks but I feel a lot more focused when I am out and about and there is a certain clarity to the details I see. The flip side/ funny side of that is when I use the bathroom without scrolling on my phone I notice the details of the tiles a bit more but perhaps that's too much information.

Anyway, it feels almost like there is a literal shift in focus. Perhaps this shift in observation is because I have more mental bandwidth freed up. Maybe I just notice it more because I want to.

There is an underlying worry that this is a bad idea. Like I am missing out on what's going on with friends and that people aren't going to contact me and all these things but frankly if people want to talk to me they can find me. I'm taking myself out of the mix of "lazy socialization" and broadcasting into the void and focusing on direct contact and it's an opportunity for people to directly contact me. I also feel a little angry at myself for making up excuses not to catch up with people and passively check in thru facebook pages and I want to use that energy to actually make those connections.

Anyway so that's today's update. In general I am learning to keep and catalogue my observations rather than toss them out into the void and seem to be trucking along ok. But it's day two!