Faith

First of all I wanted to say thank you to those that read this blog. It's super cool to check the views and see your responses on the Facebook. I'm pretty happy that I have managed to follow thru with this New Years Resolution so far. (We're almost halfway thru the year, huzzah!)

I've been thinking a lot this week about the idea of faith and the  "leap and the net will follow" thing. I started another challenge for myself: the 30 by 30 project. Basically the goal is to write 30 songs and perform them on Facebook live in their "done enough for an audience" state. After that point the plan is to tweak and make recordings and then put these on my Soundcloud or figure out the life of the songs from there. I'm doing this to light a fire under my butt to actually write songs and challenge myself to not get caught up in perfectionism and my inner critic giving me writers block. All that good stuff about building my confidence as a writer.

Since starting this project my brain is already making room for the next songs in line. It's really exciting! It appears so far that my theory was correct: if I take the leap and give myself the challenge, then I will rise to it. It takes deadlines.

I'm really excited that I think I am starting to enter the new phase of the grief process where I have glued most of the pieces back together and am ready to move forward with confidence and kick butt and take names and be my best beautiful butterfly rockstar and all that good stuff. Now that metaphorical glue might not be the strongest and the pieces might still be a little funky but still it works.

I also am more willing to take "leaps of faith" because this year has been an adventure in understanding what that is. Now my definition of God is still that "wibbly wobbly still small voice inside of all of us with the light and the good vibes and the universe" thing but I'm realizing how that works in reality. It's a faith in my ability to trust my intuition, creative abilities, and problem solving skills to power thru life with confidence, trust awesome opportunities, and not be afraid to ask for help when I need it (and know who and when to ask for help). It's my faith that the universe, etc will give back what I give out and that somehow everything is connected.


I've never been into using the term "Person of Faith" for myself but I'm starting to understand what that means.  Being a" Person of Faith" to me at it's core means you operate from a place of faith rather than a place of fear. You make decisions based in love and compassion rather than guarding your heart and staying small. So regardless of how I interpret the mystery or what name I chose to give it. I have faith in it. That's a pretty awesome thing.