Should's and Could's

Could's and Should's

I’ve been turning my should's to could's

Slowly but surely

My need to succeed is rooted in

An inner drive

An urge to thrive

My should's are becoming could's

“I should write a song today” becomes

“I could write a song today!”

Then a song casually appears before me

My should's are becoming could's

Because lets face it

I spent the last few years should-ing all over the place

Trying to show that I can make it

Trying to prove to my mom that I was capable

Of making a living in the arts

I shoulda-ed myself into burnout

Saying yes too many times

Filling up my life

Choked by the weight of obligations

I still get the should's

They come from inside

The need to survive to make a mark

To keep the spark fan it into a flame

Not let it burn out again

I’m less overwhelmed

I don’t drown in expectations

I pick them apart

Start to make a map

That becomes easier to follow

Confident that the things I know I can do will bring me to my goal

I get the should's when I’m filled with regret

I should have could have done something

I bet if I had made a different choice

I hear that negative voice

And I will it away with a

Wouldacouldashoulda

you’re fine

You’re fine

...you’re fine

I am excited for all the could's

I encounter every day

The challenge of doing the things that scare me

And driving thru them with confidence

(literally driving thru the thing that scares me

When that thing is lower Wacker to 290)

So as I go thru each day

I make the list of things that I can do

I trust my inner motivation

And I know

That what matters

Is finding my place of joy

And letting the could's flow